During my first and second years of high school, I spent my time on club activities and then worked part-time until around 10 PM. Because I didn’t study at all, I fell behind in classes, and my grades were very poor.
In my third year, everyone was studying hard for university entrance exams, and I quit my part-time job to focus my energy on studying. However, I was already falling behind, so I failed the entrance exams and had to repeat a year.
I was living in company housing provided by my father’s company, but around the time I graduated from high school, my father bought a newly built house in a much more distant area, and our family moved.
During my year as a ronin (student studying for entrance exams after failing the first time), I attended a well-known cram school and dedicated myself entirely to studying.
At the cram school, I only knew two or three people, and I lived a very lonely life.
During high school, I had problems building interpersonal relationships, but at the time, I don’t think I realized it was a mental illness.
I might have thought it was just a problem with adolescent personality development.
During high school, I became engrossed in literature and devoured a vast number of novels, but I think I had only read a few books on mental illness and psychology at that time.
After a year of studying for entrance exams, I was accepted into a university in a rural area and moved out to live on my own.
Since childhood, I had found home life unpleasant due to my mother’s problems and other issues, and I had wanted to leave home as soon as possible, so that wish finally came true.
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